09.03.2024 'It was like the face of an angel'
/[Testimony of Nan]
Hallelujah! Though I am still in the process of living a life that is not yet complete, I stand here, despite my burdens, to share the precious and valuable works God has accomplished in my life, even amid various struggles.
I believe I have lived the first act of my life, and if I were to give it a title, it would be "God's Holding." Just as a parent holds the hand of a child, so has God held my life through the first half.
1) Sunday School / Departing from God
I enjoyed attending the countryside Sunday school when I was a child. I remember that Sunday school worship often coincided with cartoons like "Galaxy Express 999" or "Candy," but I chose church over cartoons and attended faithfully throughout elementary school. I participated in Bible memorization contests, gospel singing competitions, and even won attendance awards. I was a happy Sunday school child, praying that my parents, who did not attend church, would sit together in the church pews, and I was overjoyed when that prayer was answered. However, I drifted away from the church when I entered middle school, using studies as an excuse. Although I had opportunities to return to church through friends, I did not feel the need. I led a happy school life, had my first job, and even studied abroad while working part-time, achieving good results. Following the diligent example of my parents, I led a proactive life. Winning fashion competitions in Korea and national awards for portfolios in the U.S. made me believe that there was nothing I couldn't achieve if I tried hard enough, and I became someone who trusted in myself.
2) Accepting Jesus / Faith Stage 1 / Dedication
After completing my fashion knitwear studies at an art school in San Francisco with some success, I moved to New York to find a job. For the first time in my life, I encountered a limitation when my mother had a car accident and was in critical condition. During those days when I couldn't even hear her voice, I realized that there were things I could not achieve, no matter how hard I tried. With nothing else I could do, I turned to prayer. One day, while kneeling in prayer, I felt a pang of guilt for praying to God, whom I did not know and had not been worshipping. I felt the need to learn about God.
Through a friend, I visited Good Shepherd Presbyterian Church in Manhattan. I was amazed by the sermons and warmed by the hearts of the 15 or so young adult leaders, making church attendance something I looked forward to. Although I had no faith, they took care of me with great dedication. Meanwhile, my mother began to recover. I attended church diligently for about two months without accepting Jesus. Then one day, the pastor shared the "Four Spiritual Laws" with me, but I rejected the idea that "Jesus Christ is the only way to solve human sin" and refused to accept it.
My previous experience of attending church for a month in San Francisco due to a classmate's evangelism, only to stop because I couldn't believe that Jesus was the Son of God, made me hesitant. About three months after I started attending church, after a morning prayer meeting, the pastor once again shared the Four Spiritual Laws with me. That day, I realized that I was a sinner, and the gospel that Jesus died on the cross for my sins and rose again became real to me. As scenes of my sins played before me like a film, tears of repentance poured out of me, and I accepted Jesus as my Savior and God. It was a miraculous moment when the work of the Holy Spirit made me believe in Jesus.
After that, through Sunday worship, retreats, ministry team meetings, and small group meetings, healing and restoration took place within me. Sunday mornings became times filled with excitement, eager to meet God. The church grew to hundreds of young people. About two years later, the pastor who had come to New York as a missionary decided to plant a new church. Together with most of the young adult community, I joined the Manhattan Mission Church, where I began to live a rich spiritual life, receiving discipleship training, serving as a small group leader, on the worship team, and as a ministry leader, and participating in missions under the vision of "soul-saving and disciple-making."
About a year after I accepted Jesus, my father passed away due to illness and went to heaven. Three months before his passing, my cousin visited him in the hospital and shared the gospel, leading my father to accept Jesus. While caring for him, I shared the gospel with my mother, and she returned to Jesus after many years. Through the separation from my father on this earth, I began to look towards heaven and experienced the living power of God's Word. I shared the gospel with my best friend, who was filled with fear before giving birth, and she accepted Jesus. Since then, her family has become a worshipping family, experiencing miracles in the Lord.
When my second niece visited me, she said she would believe if Jesus appeared in her dream. That evening, Jesus appeared in her dream, and she accepted Him. She even joined me on mission trips to South Dakota and Mongolia. Through my second niece, my first niece also began attending church in Korea. When my third niece visited, she accepted Jesus through the evangelism of a pastor's wife.
"Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household." (Acts 16:31)
God saved me, and over the past 20 years, I have witnessed the miracle of salvation in my family and loved ones. Although my saved family members are not currently worshipping, I trust that God, who granted them salvation, will restore worship. I also have faith that God will bring salvation and restore worship in the lives of my remaining family members.
In those early days of experiencing the Lord's love, the Word of God that was imprinted on my heart was from Matthew 22:37-40:
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: Love your neighbor as yourself. All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments."
With my passionate heart, I dedicated myself to loving God and my neighbors at church and at work, determined to offer my life to the Lord. In that process, I gained precious spiritual mentors, coworkers, disciples of Jesus, brothers and sisters in faith, and a beloved church family. Although we sometimes hurt each other, we worshipped together, learned together, discipled others, evangelized, and went on missions together. While my body grew weary, my spirit was filled with joy.
3. Hopelessness / Faith Stage 2 / Company Establishment
About ten years ago, with a schedule that lacked sufficient rest, my body grew weak. Focused on church, work, and short-term missions, I encountered difficulties in my personal life and work. For the first time, I went through a period of hopelessness. However, even during that time, God's love and grace upheld and guided me. After quitting my difficult job, I completed my fifth short-term mission trip to Mongolia and returned, feeling unmotivated. However, I enjoyed the time of unlimited Bible reading and prayer and had deep fellowship with the Lord.
I prayed over three paths: returning to work as a designer, becoming a full-time missionary, or launching my brand and starting a business. The first option was not appealing to me, and I found myself uncharacteristically unprepared for interviews. The second option, despite my passion for ministry and work, did not seem suitable for me. The third option, launching a brand, was also not what I wanted, as I had seen many designers close their personal brands due to financial difficulties and return to work for companies.
One day, while reading Ezekiel 37 about the valley of dry bones, the Word came alive, and I found myself dreaming a dream I hadn't considered. "The dry bones seemed like the souls of Mongolia and North Korea, and as the bones came together and life entered them, hope arose that God would pour out His Spirit in His time and bring salvation." Simultaneously, I felt a call to create a brand using Mongolia's rich resource, cashmere, to provide jobs for factories and people in Mongolia.
From that day on, I changed. Hope was rekindled, and my suppressed passion began to revive. I sought and observed God's guidance in various ways. I believed that God, who knew my desire to help the poor in Mongolia but was unable to find a way, had given me this task. Specializing in knitwear design with awards in knit portfolios and experience in specialized knit brands, God had been granting me talents, training, and leading me to build a professional career even before I remained in Him. As He works all things for good, I began to believe that creating a knit brand using one of Mongolia's major resources, cashmere, might be part of God's purpose in my job on this earth.
It seemed that God had prepared and given me a mission at the right time. As I worked for a large fashion company, I was growing disillusioned with designing and producing countless synthetic fiber products. Pursuing design and craftsmanship, as well as a responsibility as a designer for the environment, and my longing for God's kingdom, I envisioned creating a luxury cashmere brand that uses natural materials, producing in small quantities with quality, and, unlike companies that only import cashmere materials, producing directly in Mongolia to enhance the country's luxury production capabilities and create jobs for Mongolian people. It felt like the pieces of my life were coming together.
After establishing the company, I launched the first brand, NAN SEO, as an offering to God. Business as a mission became something I could pursue, and the workplace became a holy mission field for me. It was the perfect path for someone like me who loved design as much as church work.
Among the various guidances, the process of establishing the company, launching a pop-up through an old colleague, meeting an unexpected Mongolian cashmere factory at a sourcing trade show, and the process of creating the brand and setting up the company went smoothly and quickly. At that time, we were holding Friday worship services in a small group called I.M. (International Mission), and during one of those times, I received the name "Walking In The Light Corp." for the company.
"If we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin." (1 John 1:7)
This verse from 1 John seemed like the name that would become the standard and direction for the company, and I loved it. I didn't have capital, nor was I aiming for success. As someone who had reached a certain limit in life, I only wanted to do what I loved—designing—while helping people and being with God. Success was not about achieving something, but about walking in the light of Jesus, loving people, and journeying with them, which is why I haven't given up and believe that every step taken has been valuable. Since the business started without long-term plans, I have relied entirely on the Lord to carry it forward. There is no reason to compare myself with others; I simply take one step forward as much as God has given me, even if it is lacking, inadequate, or imperfect, but with sincerity, seriousness, and doing my best with the tasks entrusted to me.
The collections created together with the Lord are inspired by God's Word. I seek out names and meanings from the Bible for the clothes, engrave them, and meditate on them. Among the many aspects of the business, having the Word as the concept of the collections is one of the greatest blessings and joys for me. As God's Word is good, I prepare and pray for good things to come out of it. Although clothes are inanimate objects, I design them with the hope that they will reveal the inherent beauty of the individuals God has created when they wear them.
Although the company is very small, God is personally leading it. Despite not having sales or marketing, there are buyers and customers who have been with us since the first year. In the third year, a large U.S. company contacted me first, and the CEO personally interviewed me and placed a significant wholesale order. A long-established luxury boutique in Manhattan highly values the NAN SEO collection and is handling its sales. During the pandemic, through the introduction of a church member who had returned to Korea, we started a pop-up in a Korean department store, and the positive response has led to ongoing pop-ups. The first Mongolian factory couldn't survive the pandemic and shut down, but the designer who was with me from the beginning is still working with me—a blessing of continued relationships.
The second factory I partnered with is growing well, and during a recent trip, God led me to a third factory. This factory is located in Hovsgol, Mongolia, and I visited it to meet the designer, who is a seeker. During the visit, the factory director guided me to a cashmere goat farm, where I had the opportunity to film, hear about the farm workers' challenges, and share the love of the Lord with small gifts. My long-standing desire to have a real relationship with the Mongolian cashmere farm workers, to film and experience firsthand what I had seen, was fulfilled by the Lord. The factory director in Hovsgol shares the same heart for Mongolia as I do. The factory was started to revitalize an area with a severe shortage of jobs. Our meeting made me hopeful for what God will do through our partnership in the future.
Two years ago, while expanding the Korean market and praying for capital, I received a government loan with an unexpectedly low-interest rate at just the right time, providing the foundation for growing the business. Earlier this year, I also established a business office in Korea. During my time in Korea, I was given the opportunity to fulfill my long-neglected duty to love and serve my family, especially my mother.
There have been several significant financial crises since I started the business, but God has faithfully worked through His people each time. They reached out first, lent me money, guided me to repay it, and even gave it freely. From the beginning until now, I am deeply grateful for the people of God who have supported me with love, prayers, material gifts, and talents, and for the returning customers, enabling me to present new collections each season miraculously. Through this, I can pour my passion into design, pass on my skills, and, although small, support the artisans in Mongolia through their jobs.
It has been nine years since I started the business, and time has flown by like an arrow. While working with Mongolia, which has long been accustomed to a communist system, there are various difficulties, but God gives me the grace not to express anger even when I am upset, knowing that this is a mission field and that there is work for me to do with God. I have experienced peace coming to the factory several times when I responded with good. I am also grateful to God for allowing me to be content in unpredictable circumstances and gradually broadening my wisdom in business. Although I have begun to worry about the second act of my life and old age, I am trying to prepare wisely. A few years ago, I launched a contemporary brand called WIL Cashmere, named after the company. Alongside the luxury brand NAN SEO, I hope that more people will wear WIL Cashmere, practice the value of sharing, and realize the company's vision of pursuing ethical fashion.
4) Mission
I believe that the Mongolian cashmere factory, the people who work there, and the cashmere farm families are the land God has given me. Like the name of the company, I want to walk in the light of the Lord and share His love and the gospel with everyone I meet on this journey. I plan to do my best and prepare for the company to grow to a stage where we can help more people. However, I believe that God alone leads this path.
I confess that walking with Jesus on this path is heaven wherever I go. I am deeply grateful for the special moments of grace and the hearts that God pours out when my feet touch the land He has sent me to. Sometimes it is with a heart full of vision, and sometimes it is with the tender gaze of the Lord embracing me quietly. Although I must endure the loneliness of working alone most of the time and the discomfort of the environment, the precious times I gain with family and friends during business trips and the joyful moments with people in the mission field and business settings are blessings. Because I have not settled in one place, I pray even more to remain in the Word of the Lord. I desire that the Word of the Lord becomes a place for my heart to rest. I pray that I will rely on the Lord even more during the many times I must stand alone.
"Your word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path." (Psalm 119:105)
From the childhood days when He gifted me with Sunday school to the first act of my life, which was a series of God's miracles, I now begin the second act. I look forward to how God will lead me, fully entrusting my path to Him, and I long to know Him more as I go forward. Thank you for listening to my long testimony, and I give glory to God, who has upheld my life so far. Lastly, I ask for your prayers:
1. Please pray for the salvation of my family and the restoration of worship. May my brother, sister, brother-in-law, sister-in-law, nieces, and their spouses be saved, and may the newly married nieces establish families of faith and become worshippers.
2. Pray that I may build a beautiful family.
3. Pray that wherever I go, I may dwell in the love and light of God and share the deep love of Jesus with the souls I meet.
4. Pray that the Lord's will may be fulfilled through my life and company and that He may be glorified.
I love you and thank you.
[Preaching]
Title : It was like the face of an angel
Scripture reading : [Acts 6:8-15]
In a church that faced a potential crisis of division, deacons were established, and the apostles focused on the ministry of the Word and prayer. As a result, the power of the Word grew stronger, and it is recorded that even a large number of priests became obedient to the faith of Christ.
The important lesson here is that the church cannot be built through the effort of one person alone. When the appropriate time comes, it is necessary to discern God's will and appoint people. Commonly, people are called leaders, but biblically speaking, deacons, ministers, and all others who serve are referred to as "servants."
When people are appointed to positions of service at the right time, both they and the church are empowered to achieve greater things. In the world, there is a saying that "the position makes the person," and while this is partly true through experience, I believe it is more accurate to say that "the position tests the person." When someone is placed in a position that is fitting for their calling, they will exhibit abilities that neither they nor anyone else knew they had. It’s like the story of the swan that long believed itself to be an ugly duckling; once it finds its proper place, it spreads wings it has never used before and soars into the blue sky, astonishing itself and everyone else.
Today's passage records what happened to Stephen, the first person appointed to a position of service in the church, as it proudly displays to the whole world the beautiful image of a Christian soaring.
"His face was like the face of an angel."
This sentence is truly moving, one that lingers in the heart and inspires us with its image.
Moreover, his face appeared like that of an angel not to those who respected and loved him, but to those who glared at him with intent to kill in the council.
So, what does it mean that his face was like that of an angel?
[Matthew 28:2-3]
The Bible consistently describes angels as beings who shine brightly. But aside from Jesus, it is rare for a person to emit such light, except in the case of Moses in the Old Testament.
[Exodus 34:29]
Here, Moses' face was radiant because he had met with and spoken with the Lord.
There are not many specific descriptions of God's form in the Bible, but the book of Ezekiel offers the clearest depiction.
[Ezekiel 1:26-28]
It describes God as a being who radiates with a variety of colors because He is the true light, the source of all light.
Thus, angels, as well as Jesus, the Son of God, who always stand before God, are also spiritual beings who shine so brightly that they are as dazzling as lightning that splits the dark sky.
Therefore, the reason Stephen's face shone like an angel's also means that, like Moses, he had a clear and direct encounter with God.
The book we are currently reading on Wednesdays is titled "The Pursuit of God." It is one of the most well-known Christian classics by A.W. Tozer, who was a pastor in our C&MA denomination.
In that book, Tozer expresses that, as spiritual beings, we have spiritual organs like eyes to see and ears to hear.
God is present everywhere in the world and also dwells within those who have received Christ as their Lord. However, we do not always feel this presence. In fact, it is common to rarely sense God's presence.
This is because our spiritual eyes and ears have become dull and desensitized.
[John 14:21-23]
Although we have become God's beloved children by grace, as children, we must actively live a life of "pursuing God" in order to fully enjoy our rights as His children. This involves following Jesus, engraving His commandments on our hearts, and walking in obedience.
We must remove the veils, pierce through the fog, clean the windows, and fling open the doors. When we actively welcome God, who stands at the door and knocks, desiring to be more deeply united with us, all Christians will encounter and experience the God who has always been with us.
At this moment, Stephen is bound and standing before those called "Freedmen" from various regions. But who are the real free people, and who are the ones truly bound? The visible reality and the truth were exactly the opposite.
The message here is that closing the door to the Lord and creating a space where He cannot enter—a kingdom where I make all the decisions—does not make us free.
In my case, standing before a dozen blank pages each week and writing the sermon to be delivered on Sunday is always a great burden. Maintaining a certain level of spiritual condition is an unavoidable and serious duty for me. So outwardly, this responsibility might seem to bind me, and it would be a lie to say that I never feel that way.
However, the truth is the opposite. The freedom I enjoy because of this responsibility far outweighs the burden.
We have a small fish tank at home with little fish and a water snail. Since the snail is relatively fast, the kids and I named it Turbo. However, Turbo seems to have a natural instinct to escape and has attempted to climb the walls and escape the tank several times. Fortunately, it was mostly found behind the filter and not outside the tank.
However, when I was away from home recently, I had to install an automatic fish feeder, which required me to leave one side of the tank lid open.
When I returned, as expected, Turbo was nowhere to be found. Initially, I assumed it was hiding behind the filter again, but after removing the filter, it was still not there. I waited, thinking it might be hiding somewhere, but...
A few days later, Eunyu shouted, "Dad! Isn't this Turbo?" There was a dried-up snail shell on the books below the shelf where the tank is located. The shell was faded and completely dried out, indicating it had fallen long before. I thought it was dead, but just in case, I dropped it into the tank, and it remained motionless for a day.
However, the next morning, Turbo was firmly attached to the tank wall, sliding and moving with energy. We all cheered together. Thanks to Eunyu, we rescued Turbo, who had gone astray, and we felt the joy of what seemed like a resurrection!
A water snail cannot live outside of water, yet Turbo foolishly kept trying to escape. Isn’t there a parallel to our lives in this?
Just as fish are most free in water and birds in the air, we experience true freedom not when we can do whatever we want but when we live according to our created purpose.
Although it may be challenging for us at times, we are most free when we live as Christians. So what does it mean to live as a Christian?
There is an analogy I used when preaching to children about what it means to be a Christian. The term "Christian" uses a possessive form. Just like "American" or "Korean," it signifies belonging to a nation.
Those who are called Christians are fundamentally people who belong to Christ, not to a specific country.
Because we belong to Him, His discipline can substitute for us. Because we belong to Him, His death and resurrection can be applied to us. Because we belong to Him, we have the right to live in His eternal kingdom.
But does this come without obligation? When an immigrant becomes a citizen of Korea or the United States, they pledge allegiance to the flag of that nation because it is a democratic country. However, in a kingdom where the king holds sovereignty, becoming a citizen is different. Becoming a citizen of a kingdom means pledging loyalty and love to the king, not just the country.
Through this pledge, one becomes the king's possession. Although we may enjoy and use our lives and property, in reality, everything in the kingdom belongs to the king. Therefore, the king provides for everyone and takes responsibility for everything.
The peace that citizens of God's kingdom enjoy comes from this truth.
However, if someone insists that even one thing belongs to them and is dissatisfied with not being able to use it as they please, they end up exiling themselves from the kingdom.
A wise and good king knows the needs of all and meets them. Sometimes, those who are called to help many others are led through the valley of the shadow of death to refine them as pure gold.
And, like the father in Jesus’ parable, He even allows some to leave the safety of the kingdom for a time.
However, there are those who cannot remain in the kingdom: those who do not acknowledge the king’s sovereignty, and those who only partially acknowledge it.
Such people may be visitors or travelers in the kingdom, but they cannot be its citizens.
Only those who fully and absolutely recognize the king's sovereignty, and those for whom Jesus Christ is truly the Lord, become His children, His people.
Just as every nation has its constitution and laws, so does God's kingdom have laws that must be followed. However, while the Bible is believed to be God's law, it is more than just a set of rules. It is primarily a narrative of events between God and the people He has chosen—stories of individuals like Adam, Noah, Abraham, Jacob, Joseph, Moses, Joshua, Isaiah, and Daniel.
Through these stories, we learn what pleases God, what angers Him, and the proper attitudes and actions of humans, His people, through both positive examples and failures.
The reason the Bible is not just a code of conduct but primarily stories of God’s people receiving praise or rebuke is clear. The king’s intention was never for us to become prisoners or robots who simply follow a set of predetermined rules.
This was confirmed through Jesus, the Son of God and the perfect human model.
Jesus stated that all the law and the prophets were ultimately fulfilled in loving God with all our heart, soul, and mind, and in loving our neighbors as ourselves, as exemplified in His life.
Thus, Jesus was the perfect Abraham, the perfect Moses, and the perfect David.
The new humanity, the new Adam that God envisioned, was fully realized and demonstrated in Jesus, the perfect man.
Jesus, as the new Adam presented in the Bible, did not come just as a Savior. He was born into this world as the Son of Man, lived for about 30 years as an anonymous laborer in the outskirts, and His three-year public ministry was mostly far from glamorous.
By demonstrating a perfect relationship with God in the midst of this ordinariness, Jesus became a perfect example for us, ordinary people.
Therefore, the achievements of the apostles in the New Testament ultimately show that they all lived as "little Christs," following the example of Jesus.
[John 15:9-10]
"Remain in my love! To remain, you must keep my commandments. Follow my will and obey!"
But this way of life is impossible for us, no matter how much we might wish for it at times, because we are inherently selfish and greedy beings.
[John 14:16-17]
Friends, we must ask a very important question here. It is a matter of eternal significance.
Does this Spirit, the Spirit of Truth, dwell within you? Have you experienced fulfilling things in obedience with this Spirit that were impossible by your own power?
If this Spirit dwells in us, we hear not just a voice of conscience telling us to be good, but a deeper yearning arises within us.
It is the desire to live like Jesus.
Despite all our weaknesses, we want to live like Jesus. We have a hope to reach out to someone and be a "little Christ" to them.
Conversely, when we fail to live such a life, there is sighing and distress within us.
But when we take a step of obedience with courage, we experience things that go beyond our small selves, leading us to confess, "The Lord is alive. The Lord has accomplished this!"
When someone meets Jesus through me, or when a heart once closed to the church opens, we experience heaven in those moments of life.
We do not live to eat and play; we live for that kind of joy.
We are people who have been "recreated" to continue living such a life.
Stephen was precisely such a person.
Even before people who, driven by the devil, picked up stones and glared at him angrily, Stephen's face shone like an angel.
Considering that even the apostles like Peter had not experienced this, we see that Stephen, although not one of the Twelve Apostles, was by no means inferior in ability or in his relationship with God.
But what was the specific task entrusted to him? It was distributing food, serving at the table.
A person who resembles Jesus does not live for money, achievements, or fame but follows their calling. Whatever task is assigned, they treat it as a vocation entrusted by the Lord and carry it out faithfully.
When we faithfully perform the tasks God has entrusted to us, it is not the boss who feeds and blesses us, but God. We live a life of leisure, not rushing around in pursuit of money.
Didn't Stephen closely resemble the Son of God, who lived quietly for over 30 years as an unknown carpenter?
As a pastor primarily responsible for preaching God's Word, I strive with fervor, knowing that along with many blessings comes the responsibility of a higher standard of judgment. Yet, among the brothers and sisters often referred to as laypeople, I have encountered many who are superior to me in various aspects.
Through this message, I have come to understand more clearly that I am not standing here because I am the most capable or best suited for this position.
I have witnessed moments when people shine as they serve the church—whether it be on the mission field with children, sharing the gospel with someone on the street, or leading worship.
The radiance they emit is profoundly different from the lights of the world.
Just as Moses was unaware of the radiance on his own face, Stephen was not enamored with his glowing appearance. That light does not manifest when we look down from above, but when we humbly love others.
What do we truly desire? Deep in our hearts, if, on the day the Lord returns or on our last day on earth, our faces could shine as brightly as Stephen’s did, what greater gift could there be for those we leave behind, for our families? What could possibly be worth trading for that light?
That light does not appear when we achieve great accomplishments in high places, but when we humbly and lovingly serve in the place we are called, it shines forth like a flash.
Let us serve and love the Lord and each other humbly in the place we are called.
Prayer
I will now take a time of prayer, asking the Holy Spirit to help us fully receive and digest the Word given to us today.
Is there an area in your life that you have locked away, assuming God would not know about it, where you have not allowed Him access due to shame or the devil’s deception?
Or, have you perhaps only opened the door to the Lord during this Sunday morning hour? Who assured you that Jesus could be a small shareholder with only 1/7 ownership? Is that the truth?
We need to pull back the tightly closed curtains, open the layers of locked doors wide, and hear the voice of the Lord who is still waiting and knocking. Let us seek God more actively and pursue Him.